argh.. FREAKING HELL WHY MUST SHE JUDGE ME why must she say nasty stuffs to me why must she blamed me for getting rotten guys you think I want and why she says he's rotten and stuffs like that argh.. damn it.
Desperate? hardup? haha pls define because I dunno what the hell it means and say whatever you wan 미친 년(crazy woman)

I choose my life, I choose whoever I want is none of her freaking business why must she be so damn judge mental. I wanna tell her more but she still keep on say and say and nv gave me a chance to explain.


EVERY guy I came across she's nt happy den what the hell she wants. argh... den nvm she says I'm hard up , desperate for men. for the hell.. argh I HATE HER.. 개 같은 년(bitch)

I really feel like killling myself not because of men but because of the stress I am given argh.. feels so sucky. being the only daughter is so stress up and when I have whatever guy do whatever stuffs she is nv happy and she won't support . I went to helped him with his home stuffs (packing his stuffs cleaning up his house as family has just had the house painted and the rooms everything shifted so I went to help) den that bitch can say I so good with him so damn helpful she's being sarcastic.


I should have shut my mouth and not tell her that I went for that whatever makeover shoot with him and showed her the pics. argh damn it. she is saying not only him but me. Can feel the pain too.

didn't she understand what i do outside ( be it pole dancing, working in a night club, be a social escort or whatever shit) who I want to be with(be it caucasian guy, some old fart) who I hang out with is NONE OF HER FARKING BUSINESS ARGH.. I'm already 21 why the hell is she treating me like a kid telling me what to do argh damn her. CAN'T STAND HER I DON'T CARE I'LL FLARE UP AND MAKE SURE whoever interfere with my life to that extend , provoke me till that extend I make sure they die in a foul mood now thnx to that bitch 씨발(damn it )

I really shouldn't have done that, shouldn't have behave like that.

I'm very sorry but I really didn't mean it or to hurt and made you mad on purpose.

I guess you must be really really mad at me, tell me what should I do .... Tell me what should I do so you won't be mad at me.

I think I'm really such a naughty girl, I'm always not being the gentle sweet girl I'm always being sassy, rough and rude.

IF you think that you lost trust in me or so I can understand I won't blame you cos in the first place I'm at fault I'm asking for trouble.

I really don't know what to do so that you won't be mad at me. Now I realised how much you mean alot to me.


Previously I shouldn't have doubt you, shouldn't have push you away, I'm always behaving like a silly girl and such a crybaby if only things can get back to normal and have you back I promise I won't play to that extent again I will learn to be a nice, much gentle girl. I will cut down on my sassy-ness, roughness too.

Lastly, no matter what I'll be there for you always and still love you.사랑해

Cass what the hell you are doing... you really deserve one tight slap!

Back to blogging this week is my annual leave. woooh so so so good.. last friday went for x-mas party with sweetie and Autumn.

Saturday was my entertainment job hehe me in santarina costume what do you think is it nice

the event is cute there are some competition for kids their parents got to wrapped them up like mummy cute right ? hehe after my lobang went for a shoot with TaeHyun sweetie. sad thing is we only get 2 miserable complimentary pics argh waste my time there , we shoot around dunno how many shots all the pictures turn out nice. so I managed to grab some pics by snapping it on the computer when the staff there wasn't around hehe.

sunday went to botanic garden in the afternoon followed by in the evening went to meet up with Shari

What the hell lately been so stress up and such a shit week at work not only that I pity my other colleagues and my Staff Nurse in charge, my station very very very very heavy and yet shit stuffs do happen hate it when you are doing something den half way something interrupt your work like you are doing something for this patient den come along another patient wants this that, whatever.. so irritating den some other staff( nt the nurses) also can be alittle irritating so busy and wanna do my work properly also cannot argh,

anyway just wanna get over this week will do sad part is don't have ample time to study for my korean lang test and also can't get my no pay leave on tue.. so no choice I got to rush through my studies lol..

another matter to bring up today at work was much better but still got some interruption but not so bad and crazy like the past few days only today was this particular patient I can't stand her breakfast came den she told me and my other colleague she wanna change so I was bout to find the diet she wanted then call bell from another room came no choice so I faster attend , then the room I'm taking care of one patient on Blood transfusion I faster went to check on her blood pressure, temperature etc...

Then that particular patient I'm talking about while cleaning her up she wanted to drink water she's on fluid restriction den keep on wanna drink water so damn irritating I went to get her pyjamas and grab the glass at the same time just to get water for her too.. after don't know how long she called again saying she wanna drink water followed by calling for stupid stuffs like wanna use the phone to call her son or what, it happen a few times she called for stupid stuffs then when I attended to her again she told me bout the phone so I told her how to use the phone and even helped her dial the no. she wanted to called out and I walked out argh FREAKING IRRITATING.

While I was doing something else by the time it was lunch time she called again asking me what is lunch gosh the lunch is just right infront of her can't she see it.. I told her is beehoon soup den she just called to asked me what is lunch and told me she doesn't want to eat the meat so I just told her " don't eat the meat lor" and walked out.. argh.. my colleague was saying " can't she just shut up and eat? " yeah so simple don't want the meat then don't eat the meat eat other ingredients inside the beehooon soup.

most of the time she keep calling and my other colleagues find is so damn irritating too argh..

Next scenario I helped to bring one patient down for a check up this patient was on oxygen but he is not under my care I was helping out my other colleagues as she was doing something or fetching another patient I think so yeah unluky part was while at level 2 the patient told me the oxygen cylinder was not working he is on oxygen and needs it badly so damn unlucky so I faster ran back to my ward and went to ICU and told the ICU staff to helped me change the Oxygen cylinder when it was done I wanted to faster go down but the stupid lift was so damn slow and there is this critically ill patient from another station with doctors waiting to take the lift so I let them go down first and then next to me was another patient going down for procedure I think so yeah just nice able to share the same lift and I faster ran to my patient lucky nothing happen... just that my patient is only feeling breathless tried to be so fast really ran haha..

Today bout my test lucky I got an easier topic for my essay just wrote whatever I can den those questions don't know how to do as usual anyhow write and don't know what the hell is it about just do whatever I can as for listening lucky teacher played it 3 times ,den there are some words I almost got it correct but wrote wrongly argh damn.. whatever it is now is over.. phew! ;)

Lastly, to that fella who tell me don't be a busybody who are you to say ..say whatever you want, scold whatever you want you don't know then don't anyhow say I just hate guys like you who treat their girlfriends like that.. I just don't like the way you do things some more is my girlfriend. can't be bothered with you I don't give a shit well is not the first time that my girlfriend's boyfriend doesn't like me and say stupid stuffs to me whatever no balls, irritating specimen you know nothing but just only know how to anyhow bark like a dog. weaklings, pussys, fucking faggots like you should just shut up and go to hell..

sorry ar if i'm being harsh DON'T WORRY I FEEL FINE AFTER I VENT MY ANGER, TALK MY FEELINGS OUT.. :) now I can sleep well.. after everything is over another 4 more days to my Annual Leave weeee...

Fri night met up with Nicole SCB and Chelsea jiejie hehe..
we were around Tampines chilling, walking around. yeah. Can't wait to shop and have christmas gathering with my sisters and brother I was thinking of dinner at sakura with my sisters on one of the weekdays during my Annual Leave. don't talk bout it. hmmm stress up with my foreign lang test have a feeling that I won't do well have a feeling that I'll repeat it haiz.. how how how? argh .



Past 2-3 days never get to see sweetie. only yesterday I got to see him again hehe.. yeah he sent me to work and fetch me after work. unexpectedly he got me this..

PURPLE ROSE is so damn rare but don't know how the hell he got it.. ar never mind bout it.. hehe but isn't it nice hehe.. shucks I don't think my No pay leave on tue is approve due to number of staffs being down that means I can't have the tue to study for foreign lang test damn..

PAY DAY IS HERE HURRAY I AM GOING SHOPPING WEEEE..

BUT... I'M WAITING FOR ASSIGNMENTS,LOBANG

FOR 12-20DEC SLOTS IF DO HAVE PLS LET ME KNOW THANKS

Back to update yeah monday was such a crazy day for me at work, I pity my colleague one having 2 Very ill patients which must monitor closely and the other colleague have one patient really something wrong with him, dunno how to tell us where he's pain and stuffs like that giving everyone a big headache and have been shouting argh.. then mon one of the very ill patient passed away he was admitted on sunday den on mon he passed away.


my side not so bad but I just helped out with the other rooms. after work met up with Tae Hyun sweetie at Plaza Sing had a great dinner at some Japanese restaurant den he bought me those nice special chocolate from this shop Canele this dessert shop along Shaw house. haha.


Today met up with kumiko
went to far east I window shop aiming what to buy and stuffs like that haha.. tomorrow still my off, followed by thur till sat I'm doing night today as usual had korean class. hehe..

Tae Hyun sweetie was sick gosh! thought of getting him porridge and stuffs like that in the end I didn't at first was thinking should I go over his place and give it to him I didn't know what to do den I asked Randy for suggestion Randy so cute told me is a sweet gesture blah blah blah ya wadever so I got sweetie fruit juice from home and almond milk because he has been coughing den today wasn't good I suppose half the time he's shivering felt dizzy too haiz.. silly boy insisted he wanted to sent me home haiz...wanna shake him off pacify him that i'm ok and he should go to sleep and never mind me but too bad I fail to shake him off and pacify him haha..

VERY LONG never been that nice ever since I told myself I will never do anything nice for a guy even though is a guy I like this time I didn't just simply gave him those stuffs and told him I need to go off I kept him company for a short while den while I was at the kitchen eating his mum came out I got shocked but she seems happy to see me lol.. alright enough bout that I shall update another time